Christmas: Part II

This is the 1st time I have returned to the cabin since Beau was born. Naturally, the entire cabin and everything in it reminds me of those first few days with newborn Beau. ...Pierre had to leave for work in Boston the day before the hospital discharged me. My mom volunteered to stay with me, drive me to LA and help me move into an apartment.
BUT since I had an emergency c-section after complicated labor, we decided to rest and recover for a few days at the family cabin (in Utah, near the hospital.)
There was no difference between day and night because Beau never slept more than an hour. I felt like the gift of his life was so unbelievable that it was probably too good to be true. I was in a hyper-vigilant state; constantly worrying if I was giving him the proper care he needed. He was little, fragile and infinitely precious.
My mom said every time she turned around I was crying. Panicked, she'd ask, "what's wrong Sera?" Each time I replied, "he's just so perfect."
I remember discovering Beau preferred to sleep with his legs pulled up to his body. I was ecstatic! I thought, "I understand him! I can tell what he needs! I can be a mom!"

Okay...now that I'm done reminiscing, here are pictures from last week at the cabin:

The cabin, all snowed in.
My sister KT & B
All of us were lying under blankets together until the heat kicked in
Our little family
The next day, my mom & Beau napping

All my siblings (plus Pierre) spent most of the day building this awesome tubing run

This picture makes me laugh (do you see how Beau poses just like me? head tilt & all!)

At night, Colton used the tubing trail for snowboarding...lucky I caught this moment since I couldn't actually see through the camera's view finder.